Session six of ten
Friday, October 20, 2000
Background
Health situation seems to have turned a corner – subject to change, of course. I was in a pretty bad way late in the evening of Sunday the 15th. Happened to be emailing, happened that Kelly and I were on at the same time. I asked for her help, which she promised to deliver. About five minutes later, no more, I felt a change with a sudden jolt, and was able to get a reasonable amount of sleep that night for the first time in many nights. The following night, again I felt a sudden shift; asked her the next morning if she had worked on me and she said she had. Nancy, similarly, was working on my behalf every so often, frequently in the early morning hours. And she had a dream about me – a message to deliver – that I mention during this session. Nice to have friends!
And of course, as soon as one things subsides, another begins. Wednesday at work an incautious movement led to what feels like a pulled muscle in my right shoulder blade, which makes standing, sitting, lying down very uncomfortable. So now what’s going on? Stay tuned. But Thursday night was very comfortable, in terms of breathing. Yet I began to have just a slight wheeze about an hour before I was scheduled to start the session. Again, health seems integrally connected with these sessions.
Also – no connection? – yesterday I received the typeset pages for Muddy Tracks for me to proof. That will be out in the world soon. Will it be well received? Will it do some good? Again, stay tuned; yet I suspect that these sessions themselves may contain material that could contribute toward a book. (What about the one I am already contracted for?)
The differences between Skip and me came up in my telling him that I lived in history, I wasn’t just a history buff as though it were a hobby. As he thinks in science, so I think in history. It was an interesting thing, to realize that he and I commonly communicate not in his or in my preferred language, but in a common third language, a sort of pidgin-English. And typing this up it occurs to me that of course, this is true of all of us. It’s a wonder one person can even ask another for directions.
And, finally, in our pre-briefing, I told Skip I was concerned lest I begin making stuff up just to construct something. He reminded me (for the how-many-thousandth time?) that everybody, at all levels, keeps asking themselves, “am I making this up” and I remembered that in fact my usual answer is, “say I am making it up; why am I making this up rather than something else?” So, into the black box, proceeding as usual on faith and recklessness. Continue reading Black Box session 10-20-00 (1)
