Black Box session 10-20-00 (2)

Session six of ten (continued)

Friday, October 20, 2000

Well, I don’t know. [long pause] The image of a triangle. [pause] Maybe it’s a pyramid. [cough] Of course I think Hampton Roads when I see pyramid. [long pause] Maybe we should move up a little. Maybe 15?

S: Very good.

F: [long pause] Yeah, that’s it. Let me see. [pause] I was getting glimpses of Bertram’s monks. [pause] But somehow it’s like looking from an airplane down into the earth – that is, on to the – it’s like seeing earth from a height. Not spaceship height, airplane height. Just hills and stuff. [pause] What is it that I’m looking at? And why? [pause] Hmm. They’re moving me over to Egypt instead of England, and – they had a way of looking this way. They had a way of scanning that didn’t involve instruments. It involved the mind. [pause] They could do just as they could scan. [pause] I don’t know what they’re looking for. [pause] I suppose it’s a form of remote viewing. [pause] It’s rather like watching the scenery unroll beneath me, except it’s more symbolic than real, it’s more looking at a map than looking as a reality. And as I said that, it changed. Real rocky – I’m trying to make it into Egypt, and that’s stupid, of course, but it’s – rocky high, um, it’s like, it’s not grass or anything, it’s rocks and it’s — gorges is the word I’m looking for. It’s got gorges, it’s cut deep and then comes back up. Real broken country, but it’s also empty. There’s no – I don’t see any vegetation or anything. I’m getting a sense of reddish-ness but I don’t know if I’m adding that.

S: Ask guidance why it is you’ve been brought here.

F: Okay, yeah. [pause] This is out near Ethiopia somewhere, or else way down like that, and it’s – I’ve been there — I’ve been there before? Visually, maybe. This is what the Egyptian does. The scanning. [pause] It’s like part of his function. Oh, it’s not – Oh, I see. It’s more like I’m sort of overlaid on him, and that’s the important part, not what we’re looking at. I have no sense of him whatever. [pause] I had a sense that they were scanning boundaries, but – you know, just to keep out invaders or whatever, but – that could be from a Joan Grant book too. [pause] The country might not be quite as barren as I thought. It’s – oh, I see, it’s a barren country if you’re used to a lush one. It’s like the American west looks to me. It’s not all that barren, it’s just different, it’s – rugged and dry and – [pause] relatively empty. Certainly poor communications, there’s no rivers; no where for a river. I guess I’m looking at his take on it. That’s how he would look on it, I think. [pause]

Sort of mentally scanning the Nile River, looking for where he is. Had the idea of Alexandria at first, which is very wrong wrong, contemporaneous—ly. I get an image of a high wall of rock. It’s on the western side. He’s in the – it must be the Nile Valley, and it sort of abruptly ends with this wall of rock, reddish rock. It’s not a manmade rock; it’s just the level of the land is higher over there and it’s all uncovertible – I was, the word  I was going to say was, you can’t – agriculture it; you can’t – farm it. You can’t do anything with it. This is their Shangri-La because they’re safe, but they’re imprisoned. No, that’s not quite right. Not imprisoned, they’re on an island, really. The – where they live, this valley, is the same as an island, but they’re not surrounded by a wilderness of ocean, it’s a wilderness of rock and – um – I don’t see sand, though, it’s more like just rock. It’s more, just harsh territory. [pause] I don’t think they’re living a harsh existence, they’re just surrounded by this harshness. They rather like it, maybe. [pause] Somehow that wall of rock gives him a sense of God. I don’t know that he would put it that way. Gives him a sense of the Earth being like, comfortably bigger than man can deal with. [pause] Like, — it’s like, mankind has a place on the earth, but doesn’t run the place. That may be the 21st century speaking, though. [pause] There’s nothing fragile about the earth as they see it. It’s very much formidably there. Which is fine. [pause]

So what’s all this about? [pause] Oh! I said, I wanted to meet and see the people in – you know, the Guys. Maybe he was one. [pause] I hadn’t meant it in those terms, I meant, see them here as presences. [pause] It’s more like, feel us here as presences, and the – [pause] I’m going to have to work really hard to get this into speech. [pause] We are packed full of more personalities and intelligences and perspectives than we usually even dream of. And to become more aware of this can feel like being an overstuffed cookie. I don’t know why “overstuffed cookie” comes to mind; that doesn’t make any sense, but that’s what’s said. And – huh! Huh! It can be uncomfortable at first, until one learns to accommodate to the feeling of fullness. Like when one becomes aware of the sensors in the – in the – what are those things called? – tips of the fingers. The fingers feel full. So, with this. [pause]

Is there a – Is it easy– ? Well. how do we go about keeping harmony with all this? Working easily, smoothly with it? [pause]

[Laughs] “You can get used to anything.” [Laughs] All right. [pause]

My assumption is that all of this is not just for my private amusement, so where do we go with all this? [pause]

“The one step is to be inside the crystal. Another is to identify with those who are so to speak on that wavelength in the crystal, of the crystal. A third is to feel that fullness of being. What you are experiencing is a little taste of being more consciously multi-dimensional. You haven’t moved, you have – um, — Being multidimensional doesn’t mean moving somewhere, it means being more aware of where you already are. Simultaneously. In other words, rather than moving to consciousness, extending it. Making your extensions, making connections. Not making them, even, but – Well, that depends on which way you use the word. The connections are there; becoming aware of them is a form of making the connections. And that –“ oh, that’s interesting! “The way in which other lives manifest, or guidance – or specific guides manifest, is in a certain order of development. In your case, from the most – at first culturally, but then psychologically nearest spot. So that you could identify with Americans and Englishmen of the 18th and 19th – of the 19th and 20th centuries easily enough, and 18th, then came beings like Katrina who are closer emotionally. The – you were not ready to meet the Egyptian in any way, however much you might have wanted to, 10 years ago. It’s a matter of – building a foundation of mental — preparedness, I guess. Again, it’s a matter of becoming used to something, and then it can be extended. If one were to become aware instantly of what one is, it would collapse the ego, it would lead – look like madness to you, leave you unable to function. Anyone would. However, this is a learning process, and can be learned. And is to be learned; that’s part of what’s going on here. And because you can write, you can teach. Because you can live it, you can teach. Because you haven’t a particular sense of – shall we say, privacy. That’s a reason – that’s an attribute you chose in order to be able to do this, is to be able to just expose things about yourself that you might not otherwise choose to, but sort of shrug your shoulders and say, `well, that’s okay, it’s important.’” [pause]

 Widening the everyday sense of who one is, is the next – [pause] is the next step to be climbed. For this culture. It has to be done in a non-hysterical way, in a nice, matter-of-fact, anyone-can-do-this kind of way. And there are several of you out there of course doing it in just that manner. [pause] Several means, of course, thousands. [pause]

Ooh, cold. What’s– why this specific wave of cold? [pause] (Floating in the air, now. Headache, too. What’s the headache mean? What can I be learning from that?) [pause]

Huh. It’s a – I think this is just analogy, but I don’t know. There’s a sense on the one hand of a space ship and people in a space ship. On the other hand, of focus 23, and people in that room that I brought them out of — a long time ago, I don’t know. Lifeline, maybe. [pause] Oh, it’s the – Huh! I’m going to have to do a certain amount of work to consciously – to consciously expand my definition and my experience of who and what I am, so that those extensions of myself that are in space, or that are in 23, or that are elsewhere on the earth, as I become more aware of them, it becomes – I’m doing what needs to be done here. Ultimately, as they said already a long time ago, it’s all one thing, so there’s no end to the extensions, but you can only learn to extend by extending. And you can only get to the final place by going to all the intermediate places. Or so they say. [pause]

My hands are back on that chair that I decided after last session was a chair with arms facing inward, and I was talking to someone and decided that I had been leaning on – as I am now – the palms and the forearms, and whoever it was suggested that perhaps I was looking down at someone while I was talking, that it was a raised chair, which I think is true. That also explains why the throat – last time, I was able to speak better by aiming my face slightly downward rather than forward. Forward was a strain, but downward was more – there was a more reserve of energy there. [pause] There’s something very [pause] um, benignly powerful, or – it’s like, it’s another form of coming into my own, to visualize myself doing this, leaning on these chair arms and looking downward a little.

S: I really liked your expression earlier, of widening the steps, widening the step of who and what we are. I have this visual image of – if the steps on which we ascend are wide and broad, you have a larger understanding, a surer foundation, so widening the steps, realizing and what you are – very interesting choice of words. Move on up to 21 now.

F: Okay. I don’t remember saying that, actually. I remember —

 S: Fortunately it’s on tape.

 F: [laughs] Yeah, but is the tape really real? [yawn]

[continued next post, 6-3-07]

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