Session seven of ten continued
Friday, October 27, 2000
S: Mm-hmm. Let’s try just absorbing the kinesthetic side of the house for a while. Stop talking for a minute and just kind of unity/become one with this energy.
F: Okay. [pause] [sigh] [pause] I’ll tell you one thing it does; it emphasizes that I feel well otherwise. [pause]
It’s all on the inside of the knee, and then on the outside of the shin. It’s both a very intense cold and a very sharp pain in the knee. [pause] But everything else feels very pleasant and warm and – I don’t know how to – healthy. [pause] I’m going to try to going into that space where the knee is. [pause]
Well I think it’s fanciful, but I get that the Civil War soldier was hit by a bullet in the knee. I don’t really trust it though. [pause] And it sure is one spot, right in the front of the inside of the knee.
S: What advantage would there be to be carrying this forward into this life?
F: [long pause] Well, I have no answer to that. I sure don’t see one.
S: Under a presumption – and this is a presumption – that we manifest things for some reason, whether they be defense mechanisms, or personality traits, there’s some functional reason that we bring them into manifestation. What might be the reason, if this is true rather than fanciful, what might be a reason that this symptomology would be carried forward into this lifetime for you?
F: [instantly] It’s a matter of the pop-up stack, where one thing gets dealt with and then the next things gets dealt with later, when the right time comes. The advantage is in what I learn from dealing with it. When the back injury came to light back in ‘93, that was also him, I believe, and at that time – oh! [pause]
I hadn’t made that connection. At that time I communicated with him, trying to help heal his back, and I told him things that, if he could remember them, would seem to him to be pre-knowledge. But it hadn’t occurred to me that in doing that I was widening and easing the connection between us. The intervening time has taught me about healing more and has healed various things such as that back, and if in fact he lost his leg, late, later, late in the conflict—If in fact he lost his leg it would have been something I couldn’t have dealt with to help him.
S: That makes sense to me, much like post-traumatic stress syndrome, where a child doesn’t remember an event until they’re 40, 50 years old. Perhaps you are now mature enough in this other lifetime with your healing knowledge to be dealing with that aspect of yourself back then.
F: Let’s see what I can do to help him, I can’t bring him his leg back. [pause] Although I’m not absolutely positive he’d lost the leg; I know he was injured in the knee. My guess was they just took it off, and that’s why the leg hurts. [chuckles] It’s almost as though I’m getting phantom limb syndrome now. [pause] I need to think about this a bit. Well, I need to connect with him. [pause]
[sigh] I don’t know if it’s possible that a knee injury could result in him then having – still have the leg, but stiff; unable to bend the joint or – Yeah, that’s what I get. I don’t even know if that’s possible. But it’s like the leg was sort of paralyzed, but only sort of. I don’t – I don’t –. Well, let’s – [pause]
I’m going to send some healing energy and just see —
S: Yes. Yes.
F: [pause] I’m a little choked up as well, because he fought for the Union. I mean, he actually fought there. [long pause]
[sigh] [pause] Almost as soon as I thought to send healing energy, the feeling in the leg changed, and the knee warmed up, except for one very local cold spot. And now it feels – tingly numb, rather than cold. Particularly down by my foot. Had a fleeting sense that – this could be why he doesn’t lose his leg. Which has consequences later for his life, of course. Now I’m getting an image of the leg being made very much of glass. Of polished, faceted – in other words, not smooth or round – glass. Or crystal. Glass. Down to the ankle. Almost as though it’s a window into something. Only there’s stars behind it. Starlight. It’s like this leg is a window into that other reality.
Oh! [with excitement] All these things – Oh, shit! All these things are windows into the other reality, if you see it. If you have – it’s like, say, Bruce with his sarcoidosis. And it brings – because of that, it focuses his attention, and as he knows how to deal with it, he winds up with that soldier with the spear in him, in his liver. And when he heals the spear wound and it heals his sarcoidosis, he doesn’t have to wonder if there’s anything to all this. [chuckle] And each of our wounds are blessings, in a way. They can be made that, anyway.
F: You see? And each of them is a window to the other realities. To the other – I don’t mean a different way that reality is, I mean the reality of another lifetime, the reality of this and that. [sigh] And as we heal ourselves, we heal others. And as we heal others, we heal ourselves. [pause] Or, the other way around, if you wish. If you want to be inflicting injuries–. You know the old saying, “go to take revenge, dig two graves.” Very real, it’s not metaphor.
Because, the way we stretch our energy out to the other dimensions — like in this case to Smallwood – the way we stretch it out, like, colors that facet, if you want to look at it that way. And we could stretch out our energy in a different way; the facet would still be there, but it would be a different color. But of course it’s also being colored by him and by anyone else in that facet, so –. And it’s also changing. [pause]
There’s something here that I can’t put my mind around. There’s some way in which it always is changing, and there’s some way in which it doesn’t change at all. And they’re telling me that the only reason that’s a contradiction is because I can’t get high enough up above it to see that it’s two viewpoints. And I don’t know that I can get high enough above it, but that’s what they’re saying: It never changes, on the one hand, and on the other hand it’s constantly changing, and they’re both true. [sigh] [pause]
I’d like to understand more about – people like Katrina, who have a brief like and then – the life on earth is over, but their own life as that personality somehow continues. [pause] Is that your prompting? Is that my prompting? Care to enlighten us on this? [pause] I guess I’m asking, did that little girl always have only an eight-year structure, or was she a vast structure that was truncated at eight? [pause] Funny how I’m thinking of people as structures now. As, as, as sculptures almost, or crystals. [pause] But I don’t get an answer. Oh, that is the answer, they’re shining light through a crystal. I’m looking at a crystal that is lit from inside or from behind, and the light is shining through the crystal. Yeah, how’s that the answer? [pause]
Well, this doesn’t answer my question, but I’m getting something else, which is, even a very truncated life like that, even a baby, even a tiny baby of one day, say, that dies, are integrally connected to the rest of the crystal anyway and they are – forming their own planes [pause]
Okay, all right. It’s like, — all right, stay with me now. Or I’ll stay with you, or whatever. It’s like, supposing a big – envision a crystal, floating in space, like, and everything on that crystal is us; it’s all everything that happens in C1 and on the edge of the crystal is maybe Katrina, or a little baby that’s been killed or died. And they have a little bit of themselves in that crystal, the rest of them extends out into what looks like space, but it’s the underlying thing behind matter that I talked about once. It’s another dimension – I don’t know– They exist – [pause]
Huh! Okay. It’s a mistake to think that – like Bob Monroe, say, is finished as Bob Monroe. That he’s a finished product. There was a finished product on earth, and that’s the crystal. But the underlying –
This is real hard, because I don’t have the concepts, and they’re going to have to – you’re going to have to do better somehow. Because what I’m getting is a sense like a ghost extending out from a crystal, but that isn’t –
Suppose that – (all right, they’re trying another analogy) suppose the crystal is in a setting. Suppose there are lots of crystals in a setting like a lot of diamonds on a ring. [pause] They’re criticizing their own analogy, saying it’s not a very good one, but we extend from the ring into the crystal. The part of us that’s in the ring …
[change side of tape]
F: … we exist there, in the larger being, we are part of the larger being, we come out, as Bruce would say, as probes. and we have a lifetime. But when we go back, we don’t go back as undifferentiated beings, we go back as that – Oh, wait! Oh, I almost had it! (I think.) Almost had it.
We go out into that crystal, and form– and shape—and take solidity. And take structure, say. And we bring back virtual structure. [impatient breath] Ah, no. I felt I was so close to it. If you ask me the right question, you might help me along here, Skip.
S: I think you’re doing just fine, from here, actually. [they laugh]
F: All right. I — There’s the INSPEC, and it sends out the probes, and we’re the probes and we’re the INSPEC. But when we go out we’re unstructured, and when we come back we are the structure of what we were. And of course the going out and coming back is virtual, but you know what I mean. Well, when we come back, it isn’t like we come back as a finished, stopped product, but we are alive within it, interacting within it, in our new– starting from our new production.
There’s something wrong with that, because that makes it sound like we’re more rigid than we were, but that’s not what I mean. We go out – All right, so Katrina went out, — the energy underlying Katrina went out as a probe, came back in, having had that eight years of experience, and our tendency is to say, “she had a truncated life, she got cheated, or, you know, regardless she didn’t get a full life. Now what is she doing in focus 27? Is she going to be an eight-year old child forever or is she going to grow up and if so how, and blah blah blah.” But – Oh, I see, that’s why they brought in 27 before; we don’t really understand 27 very well. We are projecting onto 27 our own ideas about C1.
S: Yeah, I was hoping that you’d get back to the 27 script
F: Well, I knew one part of it right away, and that’s that there aren’t objects there, and people keep saying “well, there’s a park bench and there’s a tree and there’s a house and I build my structure and all that.” Well, it’s true but it’s really not true, it’s a structure because it’s a mental construct, but to experience something as “the learning center” and to think that you’re sitting at a computer terminal, whereas somebody else thinks you’re sitting there with a pad and paper and somebody else thinks you’re there with a scroll – it’s all metaphorically true, but the literal truth is, it’s energy in with energy, it’s not anything with objects. Just as there’s that translation error there, we’re making the translation error with our thinking that we as individuals are the primary thing so that we as an individual translate up into 27. Well, we don’t. The underlying energy that’s us –
Wait a minute. [pause]
I was starting to identify the ISNPEC with 27, but that’s not true either, that’s a mistake. 27 is an extension of physical matter reality, oddly enough. That’s what I’m getting, anyway, that none of it is the level – to think that the INSPEC is in 27 is like Khrushchev’s saying to the astronauts, do you see God up there? Saying it sarcastically, of course. But you’re looking in the wrong place. You’re looking in the wrong dimensions, sort of. [sigh] So that, all of the vibratory levels – 34, 27, 22, 1, everything – are all part of physical matter reality. They’re not separate from physical matter reality, which we tend to think. That’s part of this projected system; therefore it shares the characteristics of this system. Therefore we can interface with it. We can’t – well, I don’t know about this, but my in— I was going to say, we can’t directly interface with the – [pause]
Well, hmm. In one level, we’re always interfacing with the INSPEC. But at another level, we’re never interfacing with it consciously. It’s like, the air we breath. You’re not aware of the air you breathe until you can’t breathe it. Or it’s like God. I mean, it’s – And the INSPEC’s been mistaken for God, I’m sure. [pause] Relatively sure. [pause] We in C1, or wherever the hell I am now, can go to 27; we can interface with it to a degree (which will grow as we learn better). Bob Monroe’s Locale I, II, and III are all part of the physical matter reality system. But because they’re not –
They’re as solid to them as we are to us. And we’re as in—we’re as fluid or intangible to them as they are to us, but it’s all the same system. Somebody sitting in 27 –
I once — I once got an experience where I got into a reality system that’s realer than ours, but I couldn’t hold on to it; I was only there a few minutes. And I knew it was realer, and they knew what I was doing, and they were astonished that anybody could do it as long as we do it – you know, because they say it’s hard down here – but where that realer reality was I don’t think was focus 27, I think it was the – well, I don’t know where it was. But I think that 27 is as real as earth, but not realer. [sigh] Some of this seems like babbling to me, because I don’t keep the thread of it, but I hope it isn’t.
My legs now feel normal. That’s not true, they feel numb, but they don’t feel one cold and one not cold. [pause]
[continued next post, 6-11-07]