My English friend Robert Clarke, author of The Four Gold Keys and An Order Outside Time, tells here, in a few words, how he came to the quest that saved and transformed his life.
My Cure Could Help Others
By Robert Clarke
Many years ago I had fallen into a very deep and prolonged state of depression.
I had lost all belief in religion, in there being any deeper spiritual meaning to reality. What loomed threateningly large to me was nature, with its savagery and its largely unconscious cruelty, the devouring of life by other life etc. I knew that nature has its beautiful and delightful side, but the stark brutality and immense suffering that forms so large a part of it had become devastating to me. (As Jung says, dig up a square foot of earth and it will contain thousands of minute creatures devouring one another.)
What also affected me was the fact that nothing is permanent; the people we love and have loved, the things we love and have loved, all eventually die or fade away, including, of course, ourselves. The Earth we walk upon, and even the Sun that gives light and warmth to the Earth, will in time no longer exist. Given enough time, the very universe itself will no longer be, or will be entirely different.
All of this affected me so deeply that getting up in the morning became a problem. Who wants to be part of such an ultimately meaningless and often ugly reality? I eventually suffered a nervous breakdown, because life cannot continue in so negative a vein; something has to give. In time, doctors patched me up to a degree, but I was never what you would call well. However, though I had no inkling whatsoever of it, things were about to change completely and dramatically.