Drawing distinctions

Friday, October 4, 2024

6:10 a.m. I was thinking, as I lay drowsing on the recliner after feeding the cat, that recently I have had to explain two things about myself, one being asthma and fear, the other being the difference between reputation and accomplishment. I don’t think I’ve done either explanation adequately. but the process has added clarity to my thinking. And even as I pondered, I got a bit more clarity. But I don’t know that the subject is sufficiently fascinating to warrant a conversation.

[TGU:] but how do you know that? You may add in your third area of pondering, how people have psychology inside-out because they think of the 3D/non-3D relationship wrongly.

Can’t even remember the example that had come to mind, though I remember the conclusion.

Sure you can. It was people paying attention to stray thoughts as Christine mentioned on Wednesday.

Oh, yes. So I take it you do think this is of sufficient interest.

Do you have something more important to do at 6 a.m.?

Do the three things have something in common other than how things can be misunderstood or inadequately explained?

They are about life, aren’t they?

Well, I don’t mind putting in the effort, so I guess we’ll see. Fear, concern, and confusion?

Maybe go there first and find out at the end what the theme was?

[Since most of the following is me and not an alternation with TGU, I’ll leave it all in Roman, as easier to read in large blocks than italic.]

[Me:] Okay. Working backwards.

Fear.

Yesterday Robert Cornett and I were talking and he mentioned that asthma attacks – being unable to breathe – must be terrifying, and I had a bit of a time clarifying that that isn’t exactly right. The thing is, when you have dealt with a thing since you were two years old, you just can’t be afraid in the same way you were as a child. How many times can you be terrified of the same thing you’ve gone through hundreds of times before? Tiresome, oh yes. Painful sometimes, debilitating sometimes, aggravating and even perplexing sometimes, yes, to be sure. But after a certain point you know that you aren’t likely to die of it, and you would almost be pretending if you were afraid of something that you were pretty sure wasn’t going to happen. Instead, you might easily feel impatience, dread, weariness, maybe anger, resignation – a whole lot of possible reactions. But it isn’t exactly fear.

However, complicating that, you may easily feel panic. Panic that you might die? No, panic that you can’t get your next breath, and that this might go on and on.

Sounds like the same thing, and sometimes I can make the difference clear to people and sometimes – usually – not. But as I was explaining the difference, I realized one aspect of it that I don’t remember ever fully seeing before. When you are fighting for your next breath in what we may call , for the moment, immediate-panic-mode, you are right there fully in the moment. You have no attention for daydreams or memories or coming attractions. You are held right there, and not for just a moment or two, but for however long it lasts. When I realized that, I thought, “Hmm, and that is good practice for when you can breathe.”

Now, at other times you may be in attention-but-not-panic mode, where your breath is coming regularly, but not unconsciously. You have to pay attention to it, not because you want to but because the situation is there: something like having a headache, I suppose, a continual presence that is more than background noise but less than a shrieking jangle that prevents you from thinking of anything else. This state may go on for hours if you don’t happen to have the medicines to stop it. I well remember so many nights as a boy, sitting on the side of the bed, swaying my body forward and back, fighting for every breath, only without an sense of possibly losing the fight; it’s just that each breath was an effort. I spent time reading, moving the book as I moved, to keep it at the same focal depth.

(And that is how I developed the habit of being in the 3D but escaping into the non-3D – the mental world – pretty deliberately, pretty simultaneously having my conscious awareness both here and there. I should ask Dirk: I’ll bet his situation was similar, except that his would have been continuous while mine was sporadic.)

So, did asthma bring fear? Not in the way people would assume, and not in any way that is easily explained. It also brings gifts, though you may have to look closely to see them.

Reputation and accomplishment

Then there is the difference between fame (reputation) and achievement. This one can be hard to explain too, for a different reason. In my experience (though perhaps I am misinterpreting), I see people very ready to discount and disbelieve certain things, in a way that would be highly insulting normally. Their disbelief amounts to saying that you are either lying or are acting out of unconscious motivations. This, from people who would take your honesty and awareness for granted in almost any other direction.

(Come to think of it, this is what happens to anyone whose experience is sufficiently outside the expected range, when they try to communicate it to someone who hasn’t had and cannot imagine having the experience, be it a UFO encounter, or an out-of-body or a communication with someone who is deceased.)

To me, it seems simple. I am 78 years old. What possible advantage could fame do me? If I knew that I would be famous after I died, again, what possible difference could it make? But to know that I had (or hadn’t) achieved, is something else entirely. And, writing this, I realize that something I take for granted may be the unspoken explanation.

I have lived mostly without feedback. Until recently – the past 20 years or so – no one who didn’t know me well and in person could have had any idea what I was doing. (For that matter, I didn’t have much idea what I was doing. Mostly when I was doing something, I was thinking I was doing something else.)

I have lived my life mostly within my own little bubble, more like Thoreau’s life than Emerson’s. I never linked fame and achievement in my mind. My very first book won a prize – and then was stifled by a legal challenge we should have fought but didn’t. But the achievement was writing the book. The recognition was decoupled from it right at the beginning. It was a bitter experience, but perhaps it was just as well in not leading me to expect external success. You can’t live your life seeking the approval of others and still do your own work. If you work and the approval comes, well and good, but either way, you did the work.

Of course the real question is, did you do the work? Did you do it as well as you could do it? Will it meet recognition? That is, will it be effective and useful? But these questions have no intrinsic connection to recognition of the author. If you have written Walden and none of your fellow townsmen (except Emerson, of course) recognize its quality, does that mean anything to Walden? If you are or are not recognized as the author, does that affect what you did? These are famous people as examples, but what else can I use? The point is, the man is one thing and the work or lasting effect is something different, and confusing the two is – well, is confusion.

Just as there is a radical difference between fear of death and panic over the circumstances of living in that particular moment, so there is a difference between seeking approval or validation, on the one hand,  and finding that you have received it, on the other. What happens to the author is trivial next to what happens to his literary children. Even this doesn’t get it, but that’s enough time spent on it.

The third confusion was about the way people think things are, and the actual facts. But this isn’t easy either, as to make the argument is to assume for the moment that there is any one way of seeing things. Perhaps a better way to say it is that there is a more helpful way to see things and a less helpful way, depending on what you want to do. If you want to understand our mental world while we’re in 3D, I suggest we reverse the usual concepts.

But I suddenly realize, I’m out of energy. Maybe I’ll come back to this later on or on another day. I’ve been at this an hour, and I’ve been doing all the work. Themes?

[TGU:] “Drawing distinctions, perhaps.

Maybe so.

 

Religions and our future

Thursday, October 3, 2024

9:30 a.m. Let’s talk a little bit more on religion and whatever it is we’re heading toward. (As so often, I feel that this is a prompted question, but that’s okay with me.)

You have been hammering on this point sometimes, whispering other times, and wondering if anybody at all is listening.

Not quite. I know some have heard. But naturally I am more concerned about those who haven’t heard, and even more concerned about those who won’t let themselves hear. And before you say it, I realize, it’s their choice, on many levels.

Yes it is. They may consciously reject the idea. Or they may reject it automatically, not realizing that an unknown filter is preventing them from considering the proposition fairly. And, within the duality of causation, they may do so either because the way they are put together, they can’t fairly consider it without breaking or even shattering, or because they are functioning perfectly well, but considering this would make their life-purpose difficult.

You’re saying, it may be a matter of conscious choice or unconscious filtering and this may be because they cannot or should not change whatever course they are on.

Isn’t that what I just said? And –

And, I know, we never have the data to judge someone else’s path.

However, there is something to be said for your side, too. You might as well say it.

If I feel impelled to underline this or that course of action, there isn’t any reason why I shouldn’t do it. And, there may be important reasons why I should do it.

Yes. For you, for anyone, the even-handed rule applies: No one has the right to silence you; you never have the right to cram something down someone’s throat.

Not that either process could succeed anyway.

Oh, sometimes it could, but either way it is an act of violence, though at first it might not seem so, and violence is usually a sign of trying to overrule life.

Now, that statement invites expatiating on, but let’s say whatever you have to say on religion and out future or futures.

Bullets, then, because it will be easier to pull together afterwards:

  • All religions have to deal with various kinds of people, various in their level of awareness, various in their capacity for growth, various in their understanding of life and of themselves.
  • The world – terra firma – contains uncounted types of people, even countable types of cultures.
  • Life never proceeds smoothly and evenly. (Nor would it be an advantage if it did, but that is another topic for another time.) So there are always people and peoples at different levels of personal and cultural development.
  • Hence, one-world civilizations, one-world religions, even one-world language, in practice is and must be a pipe-dream. One size never fits all.
  • Every person, every point of view, every culture or way of conceptualizing the universe, is and must be partial, not universal. Even a point of view that sets out to be universal is, in the fact that it is a particular intent, partial. Not everybody is going to agree.
  • One man’s utopia is another man’s hell. Regardless of the specifics involved, the overarching fact is that every point of view is legitimate to the universe in that it is a part of the whole. This doesn’t mean that everything is morally equivalent; it isn’t. but, you realize, it is or isn’t morally equivalent from one point of view. From another, it may look very different.
  • “Peace on Earth” in the sense of a universal sharing of values (and hence viewpoints) is not possible. It would have to be the peace of the graveyard.
  • But to say that, is not to say that humanity is condemned to eternal warfare. It is to say you are condemned – and blessed – to eternal contention of ways of being.
  • Each way of being, each way of experiencing life and reality, has its exposition somewhere. It may be a set of superstitions, or a mythology, or a primitive religion, or a higher religion, or a philosophy or a hybrid of many types of expression, but in one way or another, it will be expressed, or it could not be shared, hence to all extents and purposes could not be said to exist.
  • No one ever comes to the truth, just as no one comes to the future, although to any one person, the future it experiences at any given time seems obviously to be the only “future” there is. All you can hope to do is to embrace as much of the truth as your particular avatar-self is able to encompass. That’s what you are in 3D to do, after all, to conceptualize and embody a point of view.

Now, this background gives you what you need.

I think it does. It says, there’s a reason why we’ll never come to unanimity of opinion, and as usual that isn’t a design flaw in the universe. And at the same time, there’s a reason why some people feel impelled to grow, and some feel impelled to communicate a given version.

And nothing wrong with any of it, yes.

Now, the specific application: the consideration of religion in one’s re-examining the world. Religions are not side-trails, not superstitions, not obstacles to progress or brotherhood, not remnants of inferior ways of seeing things and of structuring lives. They are different because people and cultures are different. They are similar because they look at reality through certain similar filters. They are arbitrary or bigoted or false or even predatory  when the levers of power are misused by those in a position to use them, but this is because they are human institutions. Everything human is partial, corruptible, fallible – and also semi-divine if you look at it rightly.

We say this pretty flatly: If you want to grow, you need to identify your prejudices as prejudices, not as the reasoned balanced judgments they will at first naturally seem to be. No one can do this for you, and no one can force you to do it. But we say to you, your non-3D component will tell you, if you do not block it out.

Once you remove the filter, or turn it down, or even suspend it for the length of time it takes you to look at it, your world will open up. Nothing closes you down faster and more effectively than declaring something Wrong.

It isn’t a matter of spending a lifetime learning about different religions or ways of thinking. If you wish to, that’s fine, but that isn’t the important point. The important point is learning to not shrink away instinctively when certain things come up for consideration.

If you can’t bear to look for the kernel of truth within a belief-system, that’s a tell-tale sign.

If you can’t do it without clinging to the “knowledge” that you are right and this is an example of error you are going to look at, that too is a tell-tale sign.

What you shrink from taking seriously, something of you is afraid of. Don’t take my word for it, go look for yourself, not shutting off your non-3D commentary.

And this applies to more than just religion, I see. It applies when examining anything.

It does. This particular example, though, is chosen because it tends to be a huge obstacle to just your kind of explorers.

I see that. Been there myself, as a matter of fact, but a hell of a long time ago.

What is 50 years? Or 60?

Point taken. Okay, so today’s theme was –?

“Religions and your future,” perhaps.

Our thanks as always.

 

Signposts

Wednesday, October 2, 2024

5:40 a.m. I was watching “El Ministerio del Tiempo” last night, and this morning as I was remembering somebody in medieval times referring to “la santa iglesia” (the holy church), I had a thought. There was a time when people thought of it as the holy church. They weren’t thinking of a bureaucracy, nor of a dangerous powerful organization, but of a spiritual family of which they were a part. Everything decays over time, but I suddenly thought, in the beginning perhaps the Christians were thinking of it as just that, a shared mind. And then I remembered, “You experienced it in that way when you were a boy, not even thinking about it, but taking it for granted like the air you breathed. And evidently most of your contemporaries did not, although perhaps your mother did, and your cousin Ann Marie.” Maybe a couple of other aunts, come to think of it. There’s something important here, if we can dig it out, or rather if we can allow it in.

Jon?

You see here the power of an idea, and how it helps shape a person’s way of dealing with a reality that is expressed but not understood.

You’re going to say a lot more about it, I hope.

It is a recurring theme, with you, the church. You don’t feel part of it, and that is a sense of exile, in a way, yet you are loyal to the idea of it but you can’t participate in the practice of it, merely because of the way it is understood and because of the reality behind the reality you remember.

Pretty big “merely.”

Oh yes.

Nobody’s going to understand what either one of us has said here without some connectors.

Bullets, then.

  • “These are my people.”
  • The simplest of your father’s sisters.
  • The cynicism that repels you.
  • The group-mind as it frees people.
  • Incommunicable experiences and their meaning as signposts and promises.
  • The final ritual at Reiki I initiation; your sense of sacrament as you had expected and not received.
  • The church in Scotland and your divided reaction.

That should be enough to get on with. This will come better if you piece it together than if you try to take dictation. Working the data helps you integrate, which is a process that associates context to an initial focus. Merely being told only provides the signposts.

Everybody else who reads this will necessarily be reading it, not constructing with me.

They have the ability to construct as they read, if they will read slowly and allow their minds to associate things from their own lives, and then ponder. It is something like meditation over texts that you had George Chiari learn in Messenger.

I may post that chapter online again. I learned a lot, writing it. I see now I was listening.

You were bringing through a message that your avatar-self couldn’t have formulated de novo, but that did come wrapped in your momentary consciousness. That is the process of  creation, in a nutshell.

I think I will re-arrange the bullets you provided, put this in a more logical order.

Do as you wish, but remember that spontaneity has its own logic.

But in any case, get going, as we are half an hour in.

That too.

I can feel it, I am going to learn something more than these fragments suggest, and I suppose it doesn’t matter what order I take them in.

[Because the next part is long, I will put it in Roman rather than italic, for easier reading, resuming the Roman/italic alternation thereafter.]

So, looking back:

  • I can’t remember what it was called – attunement, maybe? – but the weekend Reiki I class that I took in 1998 culminated in us sitting in a circle facing inward, while the teacher went around laying hands on each person’s head in turn. When Carol Sabick put her hands on my head (I think it was Carol. It may have been someone else) I felt the energy flow, and I felt then what I had expected to feel, and didn’t, at my first communion at age seven and confirmation a few years later. I remember very well thinking that finally I had received a sacrament.
  • And I remember visiting the chapel of Chimayo, in New Mexico, with Richard Leviton and his wife Judith, both of whom were into spiritual exploration, neither of whom were nor had been Catholic, both rationalists in a way I never was. I felt the simplicity and openness to spirt of the people around us – mostly native people of the area, mostly not tourists – and I felt a deep kinship with them, an understanding of them. They reminded me of my father’s sister Rose. But when I said to Richard and Judith, “These are my people,” I met only incomprehension and amusement, as if I were declaring my preference for the lower classes over the educated. (As in fact I do, in a way. The working class usually doesn’t accept me as one of them – to them I suppose I am a Suit, or anyway one who lives in a different world – but I recognize them as my father’s friends.)
  • Michael Ross and I visited the church in Scotland – Pluscarden, I think the name is – that had been destroyed by Protestants in the 1600s or 1700s I suppose, currently being rebuilt by some Catholic group. This was many years ago, and I have forgotten detail, but I remember well my split reaction. As long as I was experiencing the sanctified space that can develop when people have prayed sincerely together, I was in touch with something within me that is in tune with that medieval world. But when we came to a sign of contemporary usage, a wall rack of pamphlets such as I think I remember from my youth (though I can’t place where the rack would have been), and more when we came face to face with a priest in robes, my reaction was one of recoil. (As you say, Jon, a sense of exile mingled with a sense of loyalty. I hadn’t thought of it that way.)
  • And finally the group-mind as it freed people. (I realize I have proceeded other than one by one, but I have covered the other bullets.) this is speculation, but I wonder if the church as an entity, not as an organization, came from the earliest Christians experiencing a liberation from their previous isolation. This would have come about not in the context of anything they could name out of experience, except maybe close family-feeling, so they wouldn’t have a name for it. It may have seemed to them that they were sharing in the mind of the Christ, and in fact that may be a true enough way of describing it. They were no longer isolated. When two or more were gathered together, there was the Christ, as Jesus had promised. And this sense of being one part of a greater whole would certainly have transformed their lives, from fragment to part of a reconstructed whole.

[Jon:] you see how your examination in a sort of stream-of-consciousness way rather than a strictly logical way brought you to a more integrated understanding?

I do. This also reinforces the sense I have had for some time, that some of what we need we have rejected in the past (or, in some cases, have never been exposed to), in the way that rationalists are going to need to explore astrology and the other mantic arts.

And mention Chesterton.

Yes, re-reading The Everlasting Man, I see clearly how this luminously intelligent man is prisoner of his ignorance of some things, rejecting things for reasons that are inexorably logical from his premises, but were nonetheless valid in ways he did not discern. I keep telling people to read him (though few if any ever do) because of his luminous intelligence, but I think they suspect me of wanting to turn them into Catholics. The fact is, you don’t break new ground by re-settling old, even if the land has been abandoned and the former houses have fallen down. But it is helpful when you are moving across the Cumberland Gap into unpeopled Kentucky, to remember the North Carolina that shaped you.

We haven’t finished with this, I imagine. Scarcely started, in a way, maybe. But our hour is up and I have a pretty good idea which of us is going to have to do the typing. Point us in the right direction, Jon: What shall we title this?

“Santa iglesia” might stir people up, get their attention.

Or turn them off.

How about “Experiencing another reality”? that may mislead them enough to let them read it.

Smiling too. Okay, till next time.

 

Allowing, not constructing

Monday, September 30, 2024

5:15 a.m. Jon, I have gotten through August’s entries. That of the 30th had something that seems worth pursuing:

 “…in 3D, conscious reasoning is more obvious to you than the unconscious factors that are frequently – you might almost say usually – more important. If your thinking is being fashioned from within a given mood, for instance, the mood may or may not be obvious to you as a factor in your thinking, but either way, it will be there. So many factors go into your moment-by-moment perceptions and thought that you are always working the data while it is changing around you. You don’t have the luxury of working from a stable platform.”

Could you say more? Also, you mentioned that our ideas about “mental” and “emotional” are misleading. Say more on that too?

At this point we begin to potentially repeat ourselves, as you forget what was said later [than what I was reviewing]. It isn’t the end of the world, but it is a pitfall.

Can’t you just say, “We covered that”?

But the fact that you ask this morning is itself significant. The question embedded in the time is a piece of data. It is part of the moment, and deserves to be taken into account.

I’m not sure I get you. That sounds like we would need to pursue anything that popped into our minds, merely because it popped up.

There isn’t any “should” about it, but that would be one way of increasing consciousness. It would be a form of fishing.

Say some more?

Remember, we are looking at expanding consciousness, not as growing something, but as removing the visible and invisible filters and barriers that isolate you from the moment.

If you put it that way before, I don’t remember it. But I like the image.

Keep thinking of your avatar-level consciousness as a subset of what is real, divided from what is real by the swirl pattern of the whirlpool, or screened off by filters (it doesn’t much matter what analogy you use), and you will see that the task and the pitfalls and the opportunities are other than what you think. Again, you are not building consciousness, nor expanding it exactly, but elbowing your way into a larger comprehension.

Well, I think we got that.

It is easily forgotten again, or anyway not brought to mind in this context. And the reason to remind you of the different perspectives is so that you will see that the nature of your task is different. You are not so much constructing as allowing, and that is a very different energy. For one thing, it allows you to lean more assuredly on intuition and less on logic and inference. I realize, you as a particular individual hardly need to be encouraged to trust intuition, but after all we are speaking together to be overheard by others, and some of them will need just that encouragement.

So, in practice –

Someone sitting quietly (or, observing quietly, no matter what they may be doing) will see “stray thoughts” entering the stillness. Unlike in yoga, where you might experience this as an annoyance or anyway as an obstacle, here you look at it as indirect indicators, and you set yourself to follow the clue. “Stray thoughts” are not random in the sense of being unconnected to your life and to the moment. They may be random in the order in which you notice them; they may even be random in the order in which they pop up; but that randomness will be closely hedged in by the fact that only the thoughts appropriate to that particular moment will be able to surface. If there are five of them, any of the five may be noticed in any order, but anything that is noticed will necessarily be one of those that the moment allows. So, call it randomness within order, if you wish.

Anything you observe may link to other thoughts and may be pursued in profitable or unprofitable directions. If you slide into fantasy, the fact that you move into fantasy is itself a datum. If you get lost in the fantasy, that may prove fruitless or productive: There is no way to make a definitive predictive statement.

But it is the observing of the process we’re concerned with?

Observing for a reason, not merely as a curiosity. If you once get a sense of how dynamic and indeed almost chaotic a platform you ride, your life will change, your abilities and prospects and hopes will change. If you already know, first-hand, then you are that far ahead. But being familiar with the idea is not the same as knowing by experience.

I was thinking to ask you to talk about the various components of the swirl of our consciousness, but something says, not at this time.

That’s right. At this time, better to look at “mental” and “emotional.” Straightening out these concepts will help.

You say straightening out; I take it you mean, in context, seeing them from another viewpoint.

That’s true enough. But it is more than saying, “Look at it this way because you can see things differently.” The idea people have about mental and emotional are misleading and harmful.

Harmful?

Anything that leads you away from where you want to go while giving you the illusion of being the right path is harmful.

Even though all paths are good?

All paths are good. Is it helpful to have signposts that mislead you?

Okay.

When people say “mental” they often mean intellectual, logical. They imply that this is the factor that separates them from the beasts. They regard it as reasoning (and silently deny animals the ability to reason that animals nonetheless clearly possess). The word is often used to mean “rational” and is opposed to the word “emotional.” So if you were to take the meaning that most people would give it, you would say “mental” refers to the capacity to think that is different from the child’s world, for instance. You can watch children learn to think as they grow, although the process isn’t as clear-cut either in beginning place or in ending place as it appears.

“Emotional” is often used to mean, “carried away,” subject to untrustworthy moods, carried off balance: “beside yourself.” Good or bad (and these of course are arbitrary labels), emotions are considered to be things that happen to you, whereas thoughts and ideas supposedly are produced by your mental activity.

Let us propose a more accurate model. Rather than you being a rational being occasionally or often derailed by emotion, let’s say you are a swirl of influences and the results of influence

I don’t know how to finish the sentence, let alone the thought.

Bullets, maybe.

  • Your consciousness is rooted in two “places” at once, the 3D world the avatar-self inhabits, and the non-3D world you are rooted in.
  • Your non-3D component provides the only stability you have, as it is not changing moment by moment as it is carried through each new 3D moment.
  • Your 3D component lives in the moment necessarily and by design; it experiences the eternal now no less than the non-3D does, but experiences it I time-slices, always, necessarily.
  • Every time-slice is by definition unique in its qualities and therefore in its opportunities.
  • Thus, you ride two horses, rather uncomfortably, but you get the benefit of two viewpoints, two experiences. How else could this be generated?
  • The real mental activity is observing and reacting consciously. That is a form of construction.
  • The real emotional activity is the effect upon you of everything unknown to you, hence autonomous to your mental activity.
  • “The world” represents – mirrors – your unconscious nature. Your idea of “I” represents – lives – your own idea of who you are. Do you suppose the two might conflict now and again?

I don’t know how many people will get from this what I do, being connected like this, but that seems very clear. Maybe if people don’t get it (or do) they’ll let us know.

Can you see, now, the benefit of going through past material noting questions and unfinished topics?

I do. After I get through September’s, I’ll start on July’s. I may have to hopscotch back and forth. In any case: Our theme here?

Maybe “Allowing, not constructing.” But that doesn’t take the latter part of the session into account.

Well, I’ll think about it. Our thanks as always.

 

Lenses and scaffoldings

Sunday, September 29, 2024

6 a.m. Jon, in our conversation of Aug. 15, you said,

“I don’t see it the same way I did when I was under the pressure of 3D constrictions and expectations. It didn’t occur to me, what I mentioned the other day, that restrictions are focus. I never thought about it this way, but frustrations can be very powerful focusing devices. I was a concentration of frustrated aspiration, and that energy form remains.

“That last isn’t quite clear.

“I never thought it would be. Let’s let it lie for a while.”

Would you clarify what you meant? Also, why did you want it to be left open for the moment?

It is at once simpler and more complex than the simple statement conveys. I said, “I was a concentration of frustrated aspiration, and that energy form remains.” Looking at it now, what does that say to you?

In context, that our characteristics as lived form a whole, and we don’t get to pick and choose, discarding this and keeping that.

Correct. The time to do that is in the midst of 3D living. And?

Well, since you already pointed out that the defects may be as valuable as the virtues (given that those attributes are merely a derivative from our point of view, which must always be partial, hence never universally applicable), I guess the universe has no discontent with you as product of that life.

Correct! And it won’t with yours, no matter who it is reading this, no matter what a botch of things you think you made, and no matter how you may over- or under-estimate yourself. The world makes use of you as a bundle, not as individual threads. If you think about it, if it wanted threads, it already had threads, so why is it always creating new bundles? The 3D offers the ability to create more and more complex bundles – you might say, more and more complex specialized instruments.

Or perhaps more specialized lenses through which to focus the energies that enter into 3D life, that we were calling the vast impersonal forces?

Yes. And by the way, just because in some discussions we may go beyond previous scaffolding, that doesn’t mean the scaffolding is now useless. A different way of looking at it is, each conceptual framework is one way of understanding things, and offers advantages that other ways do not. If you are able to retain your mental flexibility, you will see that this not only frees you from bondage to any one way of seeing things, it also gives you the powerful tool that is the ability to choose which tool you wish to use. In other words, just as you can choose your attitude toward whatever happens, so you can choose which form of analogy and analysis you wish to employ at any given moment. The carpenter who lays down the hammer and picks up the screwdriver does so because the hammer is less appropriate, less helpful, at the moment. It doesn’t mean the carpenter will or should foreswear the use of the hammer ever again.

Helpful reminder. Got it. And this seems to be linking up with other things.

Yes, go ahead, as easier.

Well, on the one hand we are always being told we are here to choose. And we are told all paths are good. And here we see that no matter what we wind up being, the universe is fine with it, and the implication is, it will find a way to use it productively.

And, remembering that this is all mind-stuff, and that the universe could be looked at as an eternally changing light-show, as changes in one reverberate elsewhere, the implication is that every version of ourselves created and re-created by changing decisions equally forms a model, a channel, for those vast impersonal forces. So there could be Jon 1.0, Jon 2.0, etc., each with a different mixture of characteristics depending upon how you reacted in any given situation. And it is an additive process, not a process of substitution.

That is good thinking. You will see, looking back, that it is less a logical process (though it seemed that to you) than an intuitive one. But yes, the continuous changes are not waste motion, not lost energy; each moment – and the qualities of that moment – exist as much “forever” as any other moment. It can all be used.

I see that as I followed the bread-crumbs, I flitted from scaffolding to scaffolding without attempting to reconcile or justify.

And that is a perfectly acceptable way to proceed. This gives you fullest advantage of all the kinds of scaffolding you have been given. It expands your toolbox and gives you leeway.

And I’m hearing something even larger.

Yes indeed, and for some this will be a liberation and for some a stumbling block. But that is always true. What is also always true, or anyway usually true, is that at first a truly significant, truly revolutionary thought seems like nothing much. It is only as the ramifications broaden out that its truly revolutionary and expansive possibilities reveal themselves.

I can see that. Well, for what it is worth, what came to me is, we already have a multitude of scaffoldings as our cultural history, only we don’t use them alternately, we tend to pick one or another and feel we need to stick to it, or we reject them all and tell ourselves we are strictly rational beings who are beyond such nonsense. I am referring to religious and metaphysical systems.

You are exactly on beam. Continue.

When I say “cultural heritage,” I don’t mean The West. I mean anything and everything any culture we know of. (Also those we don’t, of course, but they’re invisible to us, so why try to include them? If they become visible as some Champollion opens a window, that will be time enough to welcome in those strange viewpoints.)

The fact is that people pick some belief-system congenial to the particular mixture of elements that they are, and tend to say, “That is right, so other systems clearly must be wrong, or at least must be less right. And this forecloses options. Not that treading a narrow path is bad per se, but if you want to break free from unconscious mental limitations, considering alien frameworks is a good way to do it.

Yes, but “considering” doesn’t mean weighing them to see how closely they match what you have decided is the true way to see things. It means, really looking at the world through that lens, as if, for the moment, you were a believer.

People seem to find it hard to do that.

What is hard at one time in your life is easier at another time.

Do you have any suggestions for those who don’t do this naturally, to learn how?

That is a far larger subject than you realize. Can you teach (or encourage) a nail to become a corkscrew, or vice versa?

It doesn’t seem that the answer should be a flat “no.”

It isn’t. But it doesn’t happen without effort, and that means focused intent.

I have a good friend who is very open to anything scientific and most things philosophical, but – as far as I can judge – is pretty much closed to any religious system. What could he do, if he were persuaded of the utility of acquiring an inside view of another kind of scaffolding?

It always comes down to intent. Let anyone become convinced that a given course of action is desirable, and the way will open according to the intent and the application of effort.

I find a tremendous lot in what has been recorded of Jesus’ teachings, and I will never forget something that happened 20 years ago, when after two difficult days with a Christian true believer, I found a book of Sufi sayings and plunged into it with relief and recognition.

It isn’t ever a matter of intellectual logic. That logic divides, as much as it ever synthesizes. But emotional logic will not steer you wrong.

A major caveat needed here, seems to me.

Smiling. All right. Let’s say, more carefully, emotional logic won’t steer you wrong provided you don’t forget the logic part of it.

But in any case, we have all that material available, more than anyone could ever assimilate.

Yes and no. Yes, more than could be assimilated by the 3D version we are calling the avatar. No in terms of what people used to call the higher self. The higher self has a lot more RAM to play with!

Our theme today?

Maybe, “Lenses and scaffoldings”?

Sounds all right. Okay, thanks, and thanks on behalf of others who are telling me how your explanations are resonating with them where Rita’s often did not.

You’re welcome.

Till next time.

 

The roots of thinking

Saturday, September 28, 2024

7:30 a.m. I am ready to begin, assuming you have a topic. I haven’t been going through the transcripts yet, though I hope to begin soon.

But you must have something that bubbles up to you as you wait for it. Use that.

A very circular process – I remember mentioning it years ago – in which I have to wait for a non-3D source to suggest what I should ask of (perhaps the same) non-3D source.

Well, what do you think intuition is, after all? How is it different from your writing your responses as they well up in you, rather than thinking them out?

And as you say that, I get, “And even if we do think it out, where is the answer coming from?”

Correct. We keep telling you the distinction between 3D and non-3D is turf, not substance. No matter what you think of the distinction, it is only somewhat a distinction. You are not body as opposed to spirit, not 3D person as opposed to non-3D persons. You are one whirlpool in the ocean, partly in 3D, partly in non-3D. There is never a 3D being that does not extend into non-3D, which as we have pointed out would be impossible. More, there is never a 3D mind that is in any fundamental way separated from its non-3D component, because it would be truer to say that all mind is in non-3D, funneled down to include the 3D incursions. It is so simple, so obvious, we cannot understand why people are always forgetting it.

All our sensory experience points in the opposite direction.

It doesn’t. Your interpretation of that experience may.

All right. So even the most logic-bound person depends upon the intuitive mode in thinking.

How could it possibly be otherwise? A thinker – a rationalist – may be a better reasoner, a better perceiver, a better discerner between fact and fancy, truth and error, than someone depending upon intuition alone. Nevertheless, both types function through the mind, and the mind is in the non-3D, not subject to the accidents and limitations of the 3D experience, as we have said more than once. This appears to be an untrue statement, but that is only appearance.

The brain is in 3D, and the brain is what processes mind.

You may think of it that way, though it isn’t really correct. It is a simplification. But this simplification is more true than the simplification that thinks that mind is primarily a 3D phenomenon.

Remember as a rule of thumb: Things are as they are for a reason (and in fact usually for several mutually reinforcing reasons). Before you set out to decry “the way things are,” first be sure you understand the foundations and dynamics of what it is you are decrying. Otherwise you are likely to find – as reformers usually do – that removing or altering a manifestation is not the same as removing or altering the factors that caused that manifestation. Remove the shoot, and the untouched root will produce another, or more than another, perhaps in many unexpected forms.

Thoreau: For every person hacking at the root of an evil, there are a thousand hacking at the branches.

He was hardly the only one whose wisdom discerned the difference between intent and effect.

And I get that this is connected to Jesus saying, ”The poor you have always with you,” which I always resented. And of encouraging people to ignore the world and concentrate on salvation (although I don’t recall if he used the word, even in translation).

Isn’t that what you were led to do, after so many sojourns into “practical” careers and endeavors? You may have thought of it as retreating or even as licking your wounds, but was it not following the golden thread and refusing to be distracted?

I think that would be giving me the benefit of a lot of doubt!

The point is not you, but the situation. To take the 3D world as it appears would be to endlessly defer the only real work you have – to choose your own being – until some impossible time when all would be well in “the outside world.” That will never happen and could never happen as long as there are multiple points of view, because different people want and value different things.

I had some similar thought the other day, but didn’t write it down, and so lost it.

Even if you had written it down, you wouldn’t necessarily remember it now. However, you would have had to hold it in mind longer (the writing takes time) and so might have had it fresher. The nub of it is simply that everybody wants different things, some of which will conflict. Even lack of conflict is a specific value not shared by everyone, and in fact not shared by anyone all the time. Where is the pacifist who doesn’t wind up approving of conflict (not necessarily armed conflict, but contention) in the cause of whatever reform?

So waiting for the 3D world to be “perfect” or even peaceful is to wait forever. It wasn’t created to be an island of peace, but a workshop, a laboratory, an arena.

Stephan Daedalus, saying he was trying to be the smithy forging the uncreated conscience of his race.

More or less. Don’t bet on Joyce signing off on the comparison.

Mr. Joyce, he dead.

To return: Intuition rests in the non-3D. but so does sensation, not to mention reason and logic. If you doubt it, merely look at them more carefully.

Say more.

Everything you perceive, think, feel, decide, suffer, enjoy, is a mixture of 3D and non-3D, because you are a mixture of 3D and non-3D. What 3D conditions do is not separate anything, but separate your awareness. The earth and sea and sky continue to be part of the same harmonious whole no matter how many people experience them separately. (In fact, nobody experiences them separately, but many do separate their ideas about what they experience.)

You are almost saying, mostly we’re just playing with words here.

No, that would be true only if you didn’t mean it. As long as you do mean it – as long as there is sincere intent and focus – we are using words to try to remove the worst distortions in understanding that arise from the necessary use of words.

So what is the practical take-away for us?

Ultimately, to see that what life is, in all its manifestations, depends, for you, upon how you conceptualize it. You have heard that nothing is, but thinking makes it so. A more careful statement would be that nothing is for you but your thinking makes it so. And that is a very powerful statement, reformers! Regardless whether you change the world for others (because, after all, most will be unable to follow your lead), you will change it for yourself. And if you think that is escapism or is trivial, we have been wasting a good deal of time, effort, nervous energy, ink, paper, and electron movement.

Pretty good deal for you: Everything you listed is mind.

You used to joke, “Who promised fair?”

Today’s theme?

“The roots of thinking,” maybe. That doesn’t quite capture it, but close enough.

Okay. Thanks as always.

 

On guilt, pain, and separation

Friday, September 27, 2024

I get the sense that I don’t need to address Jon specifically, and that our course of instruction continues to be available regardless if I have questions or any starting point. This makes sense, of course, we’ve been in business many a year before Jon went over, and he said – sort of in jest, sort of seriously – that he would be one of our guys upstairs for anyone who was open to it.

Although I don’t like wasting my time, I found myself unable to re-read any of this for more than a typed page or two, yesterday. I had decided to begin August 1 and take down notes – just a word or two – when any theme struck me. I got just six lines, so far, all from  August 12 and the beginning of August 13. Maybe that’s a place to start. What I noted was:

  • Limitation and focusing (via limitation and practice)
  • Reinterpreting experiences to justify new beliefs.
  • Hold your focus until you get what you want.
  • We are each potential containers of certain kinds of energies.
  • If there is 3D focus, non-3D connection is possible.
  • Limitation and perseverance.

Make of that what you can. Guys?

It centers merely on the fact that difference is a valued characteristic made more possible by 3D conditions. Non-3D will give you all you want about what we all have in common; 3D will give you deepened differences. These differences are sought and valued. They are, in a sense, the reason for your 3D sojourn. Isn’t it odd, isn’t it ironic and in a way a pity, that so often in 3D one’s awareness of one’s difference is a source of acute pain.

I suppose we feel the difference between the unity our non-3D experiences, and the separation we feel in the body.

That would be a somewhat philosophical way to look at it. More plainly, you not only feel your incompleteness, you feel your difference from others, and this produces one of two reactions – or both – until you get a handle on them.

One, a sense that you are somehow wrong in what you are. This is experienced by some perhaps as a sense of Original Sin. Not only do you not live up to your own aspirations: Even if you were perfect, you’d still feel somewhat “wrong.”

Two, a sense that others are wrong in so far as they vary from some abstract ideal that seems to you self-evident. Another way to see Original Sin: Everybody is wrong, not just you (or even, in extreme cases, except you).

The two may co-exist, in which case you feel you are a damned sinner incapable of redemption and are surrounded by damned sinners incapable of redemption.

Sort of like Mark Twain, convinced that he had been predestined to hell. (And his wife, knowing his caring heart, said, “Lord, child, if you are damned, who is not?”)

This may explain a few things to you about how religions express inner certainties, and reinforce them. Also, why the job of the psychiatrist is so difficult. Also, why too much attention to the course of the world may lead to despair and rage and even to unsuspected feelings of guilt because you can’t do anything about this or that outrage. Implied in this sense of wrongness of self and/or others is the cause of madness, too.

I don’t think you meant “madness.” I sort of snatched at that.

Well, let’s say the wrongness is a source of guilt and shame and intolerance and self-righteous anger (both as defense against self-accusation and as more legitimate indignation over injustice and inhumanity).

All of them unwanted byproducts of the human condition, I take it.

Not so fast. That statement implies a few things you may not be aware of – and unawareness is always the obstacle. Your sentence assumes that what hurts is bad, thus is unwanted. It assumes that the universe is malfunctioning. Perhaps, come to think of it, we should add to the first two reactions – that you are wrong, or others are wrong – a third, that the way things are, or some would say the universe, or God, is wrong.

You don’t like pain. We get that. Whyever should you? But we remind you, pain is useful. And we also remind you, we told you years ago, you no longer need to learn through pain, you can learn through joy.

A have a friend who is sure that pain is deliberately inflicted on us for non-3D reasons, in a sense milking our 3D emotions.

Certainly it can look that way, but we suggest that you – and he – turn that upside down, look at it another way. Rather than emotions being stirred up by non-3D forces for non-3D use, maybe the emotions are for 3D use.

Pain resulting in greater consciousness?

That can happen, but a more direct cause-and-effect begins not with the pain but with the cause of pain. You will remember, we define emotions as the interface between the individual and the outside world, or – and it is the same thing – between the individual as it experiences itself and that individual’s shadow. You see? Between the known and the unknown, or you could as easily say, between the assimilated and the foreign.

Treat that emotion not as punishment (or, in the case of pleasant emotions, as reward) and instead regard them as indicators, and what happens?

We get indirect markers about our unknown selves, our shadows either as they manifest within us or outside of us. “Within you and without you,” as the Beatles put it.

And, remember what you learned first-hand about headaches?

Hmm. Yes. I learned that if I stopped shrinking from it and instead sort of welcomed the energy in, it loosened and often dissipated, as if it had been only trying to get my attention. I don’t know what it means, but I do know that it has worked, though lately I have forgotten that trick, as it had been a while since I had headaches.

You will find that much of the pain contained in emotions is connected to your shrinking from it, rather than accepting whatever circumstance is causing it.

Do you mean that to be quite such a blanket statement?

We do. And, you see, we do, not primarily so you won’t be in pain, but so that you may move through whatever is causing the pain. If you are in pain for some physical reason, does it help ease anything to shrink from the pain? That amounts to trying to deny the reality. When your father dies, you don’t expect not to feel loss and grief, etc., and certainly that it appropriate. But any additional pain caused by your resisting what is, is unnecessary and often retrogressive.

“Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.”

Precisely. It is the resistance that hurts, over and above the facts of the situation.

Now, if you are feeling intractable pain – physical or emotional, either one – that doesn’t mean you are doing anything the wrong way. It may mean merely that the cause is significant and irremediable. A broken heart may be a cliché, but nonetheless people die of it. But no matter how intense or prolonged the pain, you don’t have to add to it. And resisting what is, rather than accepting it, is precisely the way to add to the pain.

Thus, your attitude is within your control, even if it has to be exercised through severe conditions. As a matter of fact, it is the very severity of condition that make it most important that you choose your attitude rather than leave yourself at the mercy of your unconscious reactions, which can never be as beneficial as conscious control. Deciding by default is always the worst way to decide.

Always?

Well, nearly always, anyway. Often enough to leave the point unaffected.

Enough for the moment.

Thank you. Today’s theme?

Maybe, “Feeling our differences”? Or perhaps “Guilt and pain.” Something like that.

Our thanks as always.