Wednesday, September 20, 2017
4:50 a.m. All right, let’s start again. This time, I’ll sit and see if I can settle into something.
Well, that didn’t work in the way I had half expected. I may have to be more proactive. Probably another case of “the better the question, the better the answer.” I must put my attention to it somehow even without quite knowing what the subject matter is. I suppose the way to do it is to start from where we left off. That was, dramas are doorways. And sure enough, that seems to have primed the pump. Let’s carry it forward and see where we wind up.
The initial insight was that our lives are only “somewhat” real because this level of reality we experience is not in any way an ultimate level. Since it isn’t, we aren’t. We are, in a way, characters in an on-running drama, created for the purpose of being conduits of forces greater than us, realer than us somehow, preceding us and, I gather, destined to outlive us. They may be eternal, whatever eternal means.
Compound beings. Humans. Constructs that live in an abbreviated version of reality, knowing only what can be known while constricted to a present moment that is a moving pinpoint. Yet, eternal beings no less.
Ah, but that’s a difference, isn’t it? We are made of eternal stuff, but our particular guise is more transient than that.
No, that isn’t wrong, but it doesn’t get it, either. Let’s try again. Our part-of-Sam nature is as eternal as Sam, and we assume that Sams are eternal at least for the purpose of the exploration. Relative to any one earth life, certainly a Sam is eternal, immortal. We, sharing that essence, are equally so. not much different from religion saying we share the essence of God (whatever God may be), but the rest of the analogy is close enough to continue with.
But if we are made of the undying essence of a Sam, the combinations we form are not unchanging or necessarily eternal. Need to look at this, but that is how it seems at the moment. Joseph, Bertram, Frank, etc., all have a limited existence in 3D. Do they necessarily have an unlimited existence beyond 3D?
Need to go slow.
I remember C.S. Forester saying somewhere that what ruins plots is forcing them rather than letting them grow in their own time. This sounds like a similar process, maybe the same process. All right then.
Our essence is Sam’s essence. Our personality is the 3D expression of certain combinations of traits, etc., as discussed extensively with Rita and before that with the guys. But what we haven’t done is noted the difference in relative reality. (Funny phrase, “relative reality.” But that’s the way to put it, I think.)
Essence is real and unchangeable. Personality is – well, more like a mask or a costume or a role in a drama, and is real only in its own terms, as Han Solo is real only in the Star Wars movie context, while Harrison Ford is real beyond the movie, in 3D life. But Harrison Ford is real only in the 3D context. The actor who is playing Harrison Ford is real beyond the 3D context, in real (realer?) life.
The difference between spirit and soul, come to think of it. If I have it right, spirit is the essence of God, unchanging, unchangeable, unconstrained. “The spirit goes where it wants to,” to put it into modern language. Thus, the actor playing Harrison Ford. The soul, born into 3D, experiencing all the emotions of life, affected by what happens to it, is Harrison Ford as played in what I used to call 3D Theater.
And it is interesting to me to see the continuity over time. No matter how my life changes, externally or even internally, some motifs continue, and one of them is the perceived opportunity and necessity of melding, or reconciling, metaphysics and religion, rather than having the two always at each other’s throats or studiously blind to each other. They are different ways of proceeding, and nothing wrong with that. But each one pretending the other has nothing to offer falsifies its own position.
But that is not the point here. It is true but only tangentially relevant.
Okay, granted. So—?
Hmm, so the point being pressed is that we are both actor and character, and in that combination is both source of great confusion and great opportunity for growth. To pursue my comparison, religions see us as both divine and human, do they not? Or, no, come to think of it, that is how they describe Jesus – but he is reported to have said that anything he had done, his followers would do and would do more, or greater. I often wondered if his calling himself “son of man” meant that he was what we could become.
In any case, if we are both actor and character, it is as if Han Solo, in character, during the movie, became aware of being the creature of Harrison Ford, and began speaking and reacting as Harrison Ford rather than as himself, not knowing the link between them, and perhaps not sensing the confusion as actually a breakthrough.
It might play hell with the movie being shot, unless the movie was about Han Solo discovering he was a creation of (part of) Harrison Ford.
But I get the sense that I am in danger of my analogy running away with the explanation. We aren’t in a movie, I have been told more than once, but are doing improv. That’s exactly how it feels.
And, in the pause after that sentence, it comes to me, maybe one reason for the improv is for the actors to see through the drama (knowing there is no plot) for a couple of reasons: to realize fully that they are actors (i.e. only relatively real in that their roles are added on to their essence, not intrinsic to it) and that the purpose of their acting is not to fill the time but to give expression to the forces that they feel flow through them. The cardinal virtues, the deadly sins. Real forces, expressing in 3D. Why? As a sort of safety valve? A puppet show? Why?
I get, list them. So, I list them. The cardinal virtues: prudence, justice, temperance and fortitude. (And some add faith, hope, and charity.) The seven deadly sins, whose initials I years ago made into an acronym so I could remember them: LEG CAPS. Lust, envy, gluttony, covetousness, anger, pride, and sloth (or ennui). Of the seven deadly sins, pride is traditionally considered first in importance.
All human life may be considered as a playing-out of those forces among varied circumstances.
But the forces pre-exist human life.
They are realer than human life, as you are realer than your human roles.
Hard to see how they could manifest outside of 3D conditions. Gluttony? Lust?
That is how they manifest in 3D conditions. But the underlying forces exist or they could not manifest.
I suppose not. All right, so where do we go from here?
Think of these forces as your 3D environment, and resume here.
All right. Well, we’ll see where we go. Our thanks.