• Conversations June 25, 2010

    Friday, June 25, 2010 5:45 AM. Trees like islands in the milky white fog, layer after layer of them. Okay, Papa. Let’s talk. I finished Gatsby again early yesterday, and got into Tender Is The Night — 50 pages or so. It certainly starts off slowly. I’m having to restrain my impatience. If I had…

  • Conversations June 26, 2010

    Saturday, June 26, 2010 5:15 AM. Early mornings with the windows all open (as they have been all night to cool the house), my morning is set to the alternating calls of various songbirds, going back and forth. One more feature of the early morning I wouldn’t gladly do without. A simple thing, really. Okay,…

  • Conversations June 27, 2010

    Sunday, June 27, 2010 5 AM. Watching “Michael Collins” last night, it was so obvious what a dead-end street political violence is — and yet in the absence of that violence, nothing changed, no power adjustments were made, for centuries. And it isn’t like those centuries weren’t filled with violence of their own. It wasn’t…

  • Conversations June 28, 2010

    Monday, June 28, 2010 5:40 AM. Indexed the last ten days of May last night, working backwards, having already done all of June. The question of how the information is to be put together was the subject of a dream, I think, but I don’t remember it. One thing that’s clear is that I do…

  • Conversations June 29, 2010

    Tuesday, June 29, 2010 5:30 AM. “Sometimes I feel like a motherless child” running through my head. A dream in which I and many others had gone — and paid — to hear — Carl Jung? Colin Wilson? — speak. I had spoken of it to dad and he was there — several of my…

  • Conversations July 1, 2010

    Thursday, July 1, 2010 6 AM. All right, I’m ready if you’re ready — or if you- all are ready. Papa, being that tomorrow is the anniversary of yourself-decided transition — and next year makes 50 years since then! — how about if you start? There will be a time when 50 years as a space…

  • Conversations July 2, 2010

    Friday, July 2, 2010 5 AM, nearly. Yesterday’s session was wonderful material. Why did it knock me down so — for most of the day, in fact? Or was that unrelated? You were particularly on the beam yesterday, and so paradoxically enough it came to look like it took more out of you in a…

  • Conversations July 3, 2010

    Saturday, July 3, 2010 6 AM. Okay. Why do I feel so bad? Too much coffee? It can’t be too much food. Too unbalanced diet? Or — what? Not every illness is attributable to a lack-of, or a wrong choice, or a too-much-of. If that were so, the corollary would be — do it just…

  • Conversations July 4 2010

    Sunday, July 4, 2010 4 AM. Going to bed ever earlier, anticipating this exchange, and getting up earlier as well. I’ll lap the day if I’m not careful. So we’re a long way before daylight, and the fruit stand is open early. Who and why? Nothing. All right, let’s talk, papa. What is the rule,…

  • Conversations July 5, 2010

    Monday, July 5, 2010 5 AM. Bad night, though again not asthma. (Did need to use the spray, though, twice.) Up regardless, like clockwork, having no idea of the time. Talked a good bit about this process, to several people. Wanting to add people to the list, maybe a couple I have forgotten. Ate just…