Tuesday, December 20, 2022
5:15 a.m. Unsub. Can we look again at what the word meant? It came in the context of a dream, Dec. 18, 2021, and I tried to remember (for I had known in the dream) what it meant. A couple of people sent suggestions and I told one of them yesterday I’d ask you again. I get, re-read the original entry, not only that of Saturday. I did, but there’s little difference I can see between the original and the edited version.
Okay, guys, is it worth pursuing?
It is and it isn’t. You aren’t really concerned, you were merely reminded. But you could use it as practice on the quasi-free-association technique if you wished.
Well, maybe let’s try that. The series of dreams seems to center on my coming into the world hoping to achieve a certain something, and the process of doing it and the prospect of it continuing as a group effort. But “unsub,” though clear in the initial segment, was remembered without context. So, just noodle on the word unsub?
In loose connection with the meaning of the dream, yes. You are looking for the emotional tie, not a logical tie. You will remember, you as a 3D being are surrounded by seen and unseen pulls in all directions, resonances to each of the senses, to each emotional complex you may have, to each similar-sounding word, or memory-evoking association, etc., etc. So, don’t go expecting that only one path will lead you to anything interesting. And, like trying to remember a missing word (the same process, but a reciprocal), don’t clutch at it. Center on it, invite it, allow it, and if the explanation itself doesn’t come, be open to something else.
Okay. Valuable reminder in itself, that.
Unsub may refer to many things. I still gravitate toward computer code, but “unidentified subject” (a la FBI reports) comes to mind. Other things have been suggested. Unsub may mean, “accept no substitutes,” and that is feeling right, at the moment. Sort of like, you want your life to be butter, not margarine. It might be that the initial dream of the series concerned my briefing, so to speak.
In fact, let me fantasize here. I am drawn toward the idea that that peculiar series of dreams concerned my life that was to come, the life I am leading, the life in retrospect, the life’s 3D aftermath. All in the context of this work, of course.
So I could see it saying: Don’t settle for second best (though it seems to me I have been doing exactly that all my life); recognize that you aren’t sure you can do it; avoid the forces that lead to disrupting teamwork; recognize that success catalyzes departure; be prepared to see all the shortcomings of who you became and what you did and what will or may follow.
And in that case, “unsub” means “accept no substitutes”? Might it not mean, retore what had been substituted for?
That’s very interesting, and persuasive. It may indeed.
Well, what have we been nudging you toward, in your personal best interests and also as part of the message we wished to put out – the two flowing together naturally, and reinforcing each other – but just that: Return to the source.
Wow, that sends me back!
Yes, but explain.
I met Colin Wilson finally in March 1995, and we rapidly began exchanging thoughts and in fact became friends, to my delight, after 25 years of admiring his work from afar. I learned that in September he was going to be lead presenter at a weekend conference in Delaware titled “Return to the Source,” so I attended. At the time I had never heard of John Anthony West, Graham Hancock, Robert Bauval, Robert Shoch, and there they were and I got what they were about. And reading John Anthony Wett’s landmark book Serpent in the Sky explained some of the salient points of Schwaller de Lubitsch’s work, which, of course, was at the center of the conference’s concerns.
And what would you say is the center of our concerns, as far as they concern you?
If it isn’t life more abundantly, I don’t know what it could be. That is the promise I immediately read in Colins books, from The Mind Parasites in 1970 straight on. But I didn’t understand it then as I do now.
Good thing! We’d certainly have been wasting our time and yours, if all these years of conversations and experiences hadn’t moved you off your initial position!
Yes, very funny, and yes I recognize that you are serious as well.
What did Kelly tell you, long before you met Colin?
That I was here to publicly remember what it is like to awaken. Or – no, you say it. You’ll probably have a different nuance that perhaps I will have slurred in memory.
She said your life was a conscious waking up that required that you begin by not remembering what of course you already knew.
Yes, I suppose so. My life has been guided pretty sure-footedly by forces not particularly obvious to me until I got to a certain point of awareness. Certainly on a 3D level of consciousness I have stumbled around in the dark, often enough.
And you have been willing to record the stumbling around, for anyone’s sake who might be able to profit from it.
All true enough. And I think you and I have made our point by now. If there’s any more wrong ways to go about waking up, or any more wrong goals or wrong procedures I haven’t embodied, I’d just as soon skip them. We made our point by now, I think.
We have and we haven’t. Pencil points can always be sharpened, you know, right up to where the lateral torque of the sharpener breaks them.
Sounds like I’ve finally learned your name: Lateral Torque. A non-3D rock band, presumably.
But you get what we’re saying.
I do. We’ve said what you (we) wanted said, reminding people to live their lives pursuing fewer external chimeras, but the lesson could always be made clearer.
Why else, do you think, are you driving yourself to review our conversations over the past few years, editing as you go?
So I suppose one more effort to pull it together in as coherent form as possible.
That, and anything else you care to do to amuse yourself. We said you weren’t here to write novels, but we said you could if you wished. Plus there are other ways to spend your time. It’s up to you.
I think it’s interesting how one thing leads to another if I let if flow according to what “the times” seem to want. Couldn’t get very far with “unsub” last year, nor the other day, but it seems clear enough now. My thanks as always.
Butter costs more than margarine, but the two products are not comparable. Returning to the source of things is always a process of purification, in a way. Certainly a process of simplification, of refining.
Yes. Again, thanks.