[In response to this morning’s post, “Unnoticed Interactions,” I received this from my friend Providencia Murillo, which I post here with her permission.]
Thank you Frank! I really appreciate this!
I realize it’s more about the interactions that happen in the background of our awareness, psyche, or however you want to name that locale within us that is constant – and not only about music.
Though I love that music was used as an example by your TGU.
Living in the country section of CT – it’s actually referred to as the Quiet Corner of CT – I’ve grown accustomed to silence … surrounded by silence. The silence I refer to is that background city noise. That constant bombardment that renders you almost stolid. In order to tolerate it you become unaware that you have turned off crucial aspects of your self that communicate with you from within the ‘background’. At times rendering a deafness to our own inner voice of guidance.
At least that’s what I noticed after I moved to this area of CT – I noticed that there wasn’t background noise inside of me that I needed to “act as if” the outside noise wasn’t there.
I no longer had the desire to turn on the radio to listen to ‘music’ because there was so much music coming my way with the sounds of nature – birds occasionally singing – squirrels chirping at each other as they scampered across the yard… OMGosh when I heard for the first time a gentle breeze working it’s way through the leaves of the trees surrounding us, I had to get myself outside to close my eyes to focus all of me in that aware moment of these unusual sounds —- that were always present where I had lived – but became deaf to them in order to shut out noise of the city.
I no longer had to become tone deaf to the traffic of sounds within me caused by avoiding the sounds around me.
Anyway – back to music — my boyfriend wakes up and immediately turns on the radio to a station that plays 80s music. 6 am that’s what I hear in the background. This is what he needs to in order to wake up along with his coffee.
When I finally make my way to my cuppa joe – which usually is an hour after he does – I usually listen to world news from an app: Hourly news, after I’m up to see what’s been going on. Then that’s it for the day for me.
We don’t watch TV but we do watch a movie now and then from the computer.
Anyway – having this radio station playing almost 24/7 in the background – I noticed that when it’s off, I would hear in the background within my psyche songs that were played from that station.
Ugh!
But when I’d listen closer to what’s in my background – I‘d became aware that there is always”something” playing in that space… not only 80s music… but the remembering of past experiences … y’know those “tapes” of events experiences that have shaped out belief systems – and we don’t realize we’re living life from knee-jerk reactions to that past. And not really ‘noticing’ how these reactions influence our creative interaction bringing into reality, our future.
So I started paying attention to what “station” I was playing inside of me that was an “unnoticed interaction” as the title of your post.
The way you worded that title triggered an “ah-ha” moment of awareness to what it was that I was becoming aware of.
And by becoming aware of these “unnoticed interactions” I’ve made changes to the way I want to unfold.
For example, I’ll notice that there’s a “victim” role that has been influencing me. And I’ll adjust myself accordingly to work on no longer living from that place.
Since I see my life as a story I’m playing out – I would say to myself (with humor) “I’m not auditioning for that role!”
By becoming away of these “unnoticed interactions” playing out in the background of my conscious (un)awareness – I’m choosing differently who I want to become as I age gracefully.
Anyway, Frank, “music” might’ve not been the example you thought was the best to have from your TGUs – but for me it made total sense as an example to bring an awareness to the other forms of “unnoticed interactions” that are constantly taking place within.
Sorry for the long response to your post.
Provi