Searching by sitting quietly

A suggested technique for going deeper, and initial results (or non-results, if you want to look at it that way), for what they’re worth.

Saturday, March 29, 2025

[David Poynter was one of my “past lives,” the Welsh journalist and psychic investigator who I feel has been one of the most prominent influences in this life.]

8 a.m. I wonder, is David Poynter less prominent [within me] and one or more others more so? I still think in terms of writing and of psychic exploration, but that isn’t what I do. I talk to Charles, I read, I ponder my life.

David, are you still here guiding?

Observing, more. What makes you think you need guiding at your advanced age?

My advanced age, mostly! I can see what a mess I’ve made of the practical side of life.

But if I was your guide then –

Well anyway, what’s our current relationship?

You always have what you need, if not in one guise, then in another.

Meaning, I take it, that if we leave off pursuing one thing, other things are always in the stack.

It would be a poor life that could be fully expressed.

So what is my current program? Amateur psychotherapy?

Not so bad a way to put it – on yourself as much as on others. As you noted, the insights come in for you as your express them for others.

I wish I had access to my history. I‘d like to experience some of those “past lives.”

Sequential processing – reading – won’t do it.

Yes, I realized that yesterday. In fact, reading may be just exactly the wrong thing to cultivate. So am I driven finally to meditation?

Just as you didn’t do channeling the way others did it, so you don’t need to do meditation as others do it. Sit quietly at your desk, with eyes open and mind blank, and proceed from there, noting down what comes and when it runs dry, then going back to sitting empty.

Allowing the larger “me” to drive.

Yes, but you in the passenger seat with eyes open.

I will try it. I realized yesterday, reading interferes not by giving me plots and characters to run around in my mind. Presumably it is the sequential nature of the activity that is the problem.

That causes and exaggerates the problem, yes.

So now I’ll try your suggested method.

[A couple of images.]

Can’t write every thought.

You can get the important ones – only how do you know ahead of time which are important? You don’t need to spell out the connectors, that’s what would take too long.

[A few more entries.]

So far, not a very productive meditation.

Remember George Chiari [the protagonist of Messenger, who learned meditation in a chapter I called “The Monkey”], and keep at it.

Eyes open prevents fantasy. Provides the alpha bridge, too, I think.

[Further entries.]

So many examples of my not running intellectual and emotional lives in sync. Very clear now. Listening to the literal words, not getting the meaning. Suddenly seeing that others had that problem with me – and I didn’t suspect it. They heard the words and not the intent.

[Tried again a couple of times during the day, ending with this entry.]

8:30 p.m. I haven’t had much luck so far. Some input, please.

You need to think of your readers. You are leaving your readers with no new entries to read.

 I am. But I don’t feel like working.

Not the point. You are trying to get to another level. Think of your readers.

Work for their sake, you mean, which is ultimately for my sake?

Seek, and record your seeking, as usual.

Since I’m not receiving input – other than what you’re giving me right now – I suppose I could describe the process and the hope.

Have you ever done anything else?

I don’t know what it amounts to. Something, not nothing. But what, I don’t know.