The external world and the internal

Thursday, October 18, 2018

6:40 a.m. A comment on yesterday’s message / conversation sends me to John Michael Greer. [] I used to read him regularly, but have forgotten about him for years. He is a little ponderous in his style, but when you get used to it, valuable in the way he weaves various strands of thought and reading into a vision of what is happening. The archdruid.

So, guys, how about elaborating on your statement of yesterday? You said, “Those of you who can, now is the time to take advantage of these heightened energies to work on your own longtime project, which is not this lifetime, yet must work through this lifetime. If you can believe that all is well, when what you see is falling apart, you will realize that what you see is not all that is, and that will be an important clue and a valuable aid.”

It may be important to some that we emphasize that when we talk about “all is well” and “things falling apart,” we are talking about their (your) personal lives and about the world around you. Can you remember in this context that inner and outer are two aspects of the same reality? That what seems external and disconnected from you only seems, and not is, disconnected and external? If you can remember that, the next step is to experience it that way. This will lead you to unimagined transformation.

Now, when I see you saying that what we are observing around us is also part of us – I think that could do with some explanation, because so easily misinterpreted. (Ask me how I know, as my daughter would say.)

You will bear in mind your own caveats about how to understand the saying that “the world mirrors us.”

All tight. I tell people, the world we meet expresses to us our own unconscious processes, but that doesn’t mean that what we see is what we are, necessarily; what we see may demonstrate to us what we are not. Our reactions may clarify who we are by opposition quite as well as by identity.

To a degree. Not entirely, or let’s say not exactly.

I’m open to correction.

When you saw the Kennedy assassination, you did not approve; it did not express your will; it was not what you ever would have had done.

To put it mildly.

So in what way did it mirror your internal world?

I suppose you will say it mirrored my capacity for violence, or hatred? I don’t know.

It showed you the world as chaos, as later it showed you the world as competing forces, and later showed you the world as conspiracy and secrets, and counter-conspiracy and rival secrets, and later showed you that everything that seems separate is actually part of a greater whole. Any of those interpretations could be taken as the truth at any given time. Whatever one takes as true reflects one’s inner being at that moment.

I can feel something very complicated coming up.

Not complicated, so much as intricate, difficult to express except calmly.

So, recalibrate, I know. [Pause] Go ahead.

At any given moment, you are many “yous” at the same time. There is the contemporary you, and all the great number of differing yous at various times in the 3D past, and the common denominator you for this lifetime (much of which you may not have yet experienced, paradoxically enough) — and that considers only the this-life part of you. To it must be added the whole vast rest of you, in at least two logical divisions. First, your larger non-3D self that is not restricted to the present lifetime but is your parent-soul, so to speak, though that is a very sloppy undisciplined way to put it, and second there are all those other aspects of you – those “past lives” and for that matter “future lives” that do interact with you, whether or not you recognize the interactions.

Can you see that all these various equally compelling equally valid equally alive versions of you are unlikely to be in total agreement about the meaning of anything? Can you recognize that, since they will necessarily have different values, some contradicting others, some shading off by nuances, your own reaction to the world is unlikely to be consistent and finely focused? If it is consistent and finely focused, we suggest it is because you have truncated contradictory manifestations. (That’s why one-pointed men tend to be violent; they are the product and producers of violence.)

Since “you” view the world from so many-sided a viewpoint, it should not be a surprise that the world seems contradictory, ever-changing, perhaps chaotic. It reflects not what you are, exactly; more like, what you express at any given moment.

Now, if you will back away from your current-3D-life perspective, you will see that your non-3D perspective is broader in some ways but is still closely tied to it. To get to the “larger project” we referred to, you need to envision the longer-term arrow into the blue that you are.

Poetic. I take that to mean, our original being as it differentiated from the universal source. I don’t know how to put it better than that.

That is what we meant. Behind any life or group of lives is a vector, expressing or rather intended to express certain values. “Intended to” means, it is your 3D-life-choosing that does the expressing. It is your reaction to what you experience as external events that shapes you, but you are shaped from a starting point that is that vector.

I doubt that that is very clear. I hear you saying, there is the original unity, whatever that is. (It isn’t something we experience, being too fragmentary.) That unity is subdivided into vectors – that is, into incomplete representations of certain values, and characteristics I guess, each of which continually or anyway occasionally express in a given 3D world-time as a person.

Yes, that is what we said.

Or meant to say, anyway.

The salient point is that your life is that of a fragment of something far larger and more complete. We use the word “fragment” not to indicate a breaking-up, but to indicate something which is in itself incomplete.

We know we are incomplete. We feel it, we reach for completeness and don’t know how to find it.

It can’t be found. How can green be a full spectrum? How can “this” be “that”? it isn’t your design to be complete, but to be alive and aware as a representative of your particular nature, which could be paraphrased, “of your particular kind of incompleteness.”

I’m starting to get the connection. Yearning for perfection externally is the same as yearning for completeness internally.

Very much the same idea, and of course impossible of satisfaction in either case.

Which isn’t to say that our yearning for improvement, even for perfection, is wrong or stupid or doomed.

No, but understand the nature of things. For any of you to perfect yourselves is to perfect one aspect of reality, is to polish one point of one vector. You aren’t perfect in the sense of reflecting everything, and you aren’t going to be. You are perfect in the sense of expressing to the fullest the potential you are born into. That is, you can become perfect, yet, you already are perfect. It is a matter of turning potential into actual, which is done by a lifetime of conscious choosing.

So, don’t expect Utopia (or, I imagine, Dystopia) externally, and don’t expect to encompass the world internally.

Isn’t that merely common sense? The world is bigger than any of its parts, and even more so when you remember that the 3D shades into the non-3D, and that past and future are concepts more than discrete realities.

It’s up to us to choose who we will be, what values we will uphold, continually.

It is always the condition, but at the moment, like water boiling, you have the advantage of extra energy that you may be able to employ. However, a caveat: It is an entire waste of time to condemn. In every direction you will see things you disapprove, perhaps fear (and therefore, soon, hate). If you fixate on what you reject, how does that help you manifest what you uphold?

The unconscious doesn’t recognize the negative, we are told.

True enough. Say “I am not that,” and it hears an expression of identity: “I am that.” This is true in itself, but isn’t what you want to be expressing. So all you are doing is setting up or enhancing internal unconscious contradictions. It won’t improve your temper and it won’t improve your understanding, and it certainly won’t improve your ability to choose, even though it will appear to express great firmness of vision and will.

Enough for now.

Okay, thanks for all this.