TGU on our judging ourselves

Friday, March 26, 2021

5:50 a.m. For some reason, I wake with the idea that you’ve got something you’d like to say. Go ahead, I’m all ears.

Actually, you woke up thinking of Papa’s Trial.

I did.

Wondering if this time a book of yours would hit, despite your not doing anything to let it do so.

I have tried several conventional routes in the past, and nothing worked. It’s true, I look at Dave and Liliane Fortna’s preparations for her book, and can see the immense difference, but I don’t have that energy, nor that temperament. Twenty years ago, maybe, if I had known what to do.

But we are not concerned with getting you up to tell you, “You need to do this and that.”  We’re just pointing out to you the difference between what you think you want and what you really want, as measured by your efforts, because people don’t do things without reason, and they don’t not do things without reason.

I understand.

We know you do, but you don’t always apply.

Oh, I don’t know, it seems to me I’ve been taking things as they come, dealing with things one after the next without losing my center.

You are proud of that, and no harm in it. But while you are well able to receive, or accept, you are less able to initiate.

Tell me something I don’t know.

Maybe that isn’t an accident.

Meaning, it was – I was – planned that way.

Of course. No one malfunctions his way through life, though often enough it looks that way.

I think you’d better say some more about that, not that I don’t get that in fact that’s why you have me here at the moment.

We send two kinds of messages, as you know: some for you alone, some for you to broadcast. This is one of the latter.

And understood is that the ones for me to broadcast usually apply very much to me, only they’re using me as an example with broader application.

Of course, and you see it every so often in an email or in a posted comment.

I do. It’s very gratifying, and it used to be very reassuring, at a time when I needed such reassurance. So, “No one malfunctions his way through life, though it often enough looks that way.”

Surely it is obvious that people are their own severest critics. Very judgmental people may pass on to others the condemnation they secretly feel for themselves. Very easy-going accepting people may give indulgence to others that they wish they could receive for themselves. It’s a spectrum, and pretty much everyone fits somewhere on or between these extremes. What they all have in common is a lack of detached perspective on themselves; on their personality, their achievements, their shortcomings, their purpose – everything. You never have the data to judge, but life nonetheless forces you to judge if only provisionally. So you’re in a fix. Much of your life may be too painful or embarrassing for you to wish to be aware of, so it slips away from you in one way or another. You don’t let yourself think of certain things, or you forget them to the extent of genuinely not remembering, or you fight the continuing surfacing of reminders against your will. Even if you do not experience your life as painful or embarrassing or shameful or whatever other negative way you might see it, still the constrictions of 3D time and space lead you to forget, if only from sheer inability to hold everything in RAM. And so you in effect rewrite your life, remembering certain themes while others fall into oblivion.

Don’t we all select our memories by our own criteria? Granted the selection process is largely unconscious – that is, granted that we in our 3D awareness are largely unconscious of the process by which some themes are retained and others not – isn’t that by different criteria depending on who is living it?

Of course. So?

Well, I guess I though you were going to say something like, “You’re all misinformed about your own lives for the same reason.”

That’s not an impossible paraphrase.

But we’re all different.

What if we said, “You all breathe in and breathe out”? Or, “You all eat food and process it and that’s how you live”? You all do those things individually, but they may be seen in abstract as the same process. We are sliding over the differences between vegetarian and meat-eating diet, let’s say, or between an asthmatic’s and an athlete’s breathing. The point is that here is something that living in 3D forces you to do (though we don’t much like the word “force” here). If you are going to be in 3D, you are going to live within certain constraints, and you are going to wind up being affected by the same pressures and enticements.

So, you all rewrite your past (and therefore your present) in effect, because you all have to select among your memories, and that selection process is not arbitrary nor random; it is by theme.

We sort of make up fairy-tales about ourselves.

Minus the prejudicial overtones, yes, you could say that. You are all the heroes of your own story, even if it be a flawed hero. It’s natural, which is the same as saying, “nothing wrong with it.” But any story is written as much by leaving out as by including.

Sure; you said a long time ago, if you want to create a rose, you suppress everything that is not-rose.

How else could it be done? So, in your lives, which remember are being sculpted, everything that is not-you is continually being pared away.

By whom?

Ah, excellent question.

Yours, no doubt.

An excellent question in any case. Haven’t we been encouraging you – all of you – to live more in the moment? Haven’t we said that the reducing of barriers between yourself and others is good work, well worth doing? This is why.

That isn’t clear yet.

If the ego-level self tries to shape your overall destiny, it will make a mess of it. But if the ego-level self actively cooperates with the larger, wiser self that shapes your overall destiny, it will create a magnificent being. Or, less “create” than “reveal.” It is a matter of each level of being contributing what it is designed to contribute, rather than any one layer saying either “It’s all up to me” or “It’s my right to do as I please regardless.”

So I think this amounts to saying, we in 3D will do well to cooperate with the non-3D part of ourselves, which implies being able to hear, which implies removing the barriers to listening.

Yes, exactly. And it is the non-3D’s part to encourage the 3D as you go along, because it sees the terrain you can’t see. But only you (the 3D component) can act.

We can’t lay the rails but we can derail the train.

We’re smiling. Not the analogy we would have chosen, and in fact not a very good one. Better would be one that did not imply a fixed route the way rails do. Say, we have the road map, but you can always choose the exits or, for that matter, make what seem to us wrong turns.

You don’t malfunction your way though life. That doesn’t mean you couldn’t do better. Only, what is “better”? Who determines, and by what criteria?

We’re skating on the edge of something here, I can feel it, but we haven’t quite gotten it.

No, not quite. It is this. You in 3D judge yourselves too much, which is an exercise in futility, because you don’t have the proper criteria on which to judge (you make up your standards as you go along, or you adopt those of others) and you don’t have the information that would allow a reasonable judgment (having forgotten so much that you have done and been, and having forgotten it according to necessarily skewed emotional necessities).

Don’t judge! Accept, allow in, weigh with compassion, seek to understand rather than acquit or condemn. Your lives will open up to your in surprising ways.

And that’s enough. Less than an hour, but a good amount of words, and a good place to pause.

Okay, thanks as always.


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