[I am very glad to see this course-correction. Too many people — especially New Age-influenced people — tend to blame the ego and deify the self, which I think is a serious misreading of the situtation.]
A Short Lesson About Attitude
by John Dorsey Wolf
We might call this “R&R”, not the military term meaning “Rest and Relaxation” from being on the front lines in battle; instead, “Ramifications of Rita” as I digest and ingest her material via Frank.
A couple of thoughts came to me the other day while I was on the freeway.
A driver in front of me was well into an exit lane, and at the last second veered suddenly without signaling across two lanes to return to the freeway. I grumbled to myself, “That idiot!”. (Actually, it was a few non-PG words to that effect.) Along with that statement I instantly felt threatened, generated some anger, and sent that energy out into the Universe.
In the past, searching for what part of me might be responsible for this behavior on my part, I would say it’s my ego at work. I have no formal psychology education, and I won’t pretend to fully understand what ego is. I simply view my ego as the externally oriented aspect of me.
I starting thinking about some of the beliefs I held about my ego. For example,
a) It can be superficial and arrogant.
b) It can be self-serving at the expense of others.
c) It can make mistakes, go the wrong way, and generate “bad” thoughts.
On the other hand, there is my soul. My beliefs about my soul have been for the most part opposite of those of my ego. My soul is pure love. It is all wise, infallible. It thinks only positive thoughts.
I tended to associate the ego with my body and matter, while associating the soul with non-matter. In this last series of dialogues with Frank, Rita referred to the “3D mind” and the “non-3D mind” and how the 3D mind develops independence by being imbedded in 3D.
One convenience of having an ego separate from the soul is that we have “someone” to blame. We have someone who needs to learn. We have someone who can be saved and redeemed, or fixed. This kind of thinking encourages us to assign anything we deem negative to one part of us, and what we deem positive, e.g., love, to a different part. All my best thoughts therefore would be soul (or higher) generated, while all the others would be ego generated.
Some writers (not Frank) consistently put down the ego while glorifying the soul. Lately, something has been sticking in my craw about that.
Accepting the connectivity and the one shared reality as Rita has spoken about blurs the boundary between an ego and a soul. We could say that the ego is on the front lines of the physical, and the soul is on the front lines of the non-physical, but in the end when the body is dropped, does the ego die? Both aspects of the mind named ego and soul survive as an entity, even though of course there is no longer a front line to the physical.
If ego and soul are arbitrary distinctions of the same thing, then I would have to admit that my thoughts, my emotions and my actions are as soul-based as they are ego-based. A part of me that is non-physical that can be superficial, arrogant, self-serving, fallible, and bad?
Perhaps we could call this an “inconvenient truth” (knowing of course that at best it is relative); but, that really wasn’t the end point of the lesson for me.
Judging is an acquired 3D habit. All of those undesirable characteristics and their opposites are my terms resulting from applying my judgement. As is my assessment of someone else’s driving.
From the perspective of greater consciousness, judgement is suspended, and what is witnessed instead is perhaps what I am deciding to be (my “essential composition” as Rita said); how complete I may be; what change, no matter how small, I bring; and what I learned about the nature of creation.
I think my short search for finding parts of me to judge and blame ended up like all searches for all my parts. They are all me. And now to judge judgement: it’s a bad habit!