Sunday February 15, 2015
F: 5 a.m. Good morning, Rita. Your rephrasing of the question as “What is it in the nature of the world that produces suffering as a by-product?” seems to have opened doors for Charles. He suggests that you continue along that line. Or, of course, we could follow another of his suggestions.
And, before you begin either, I might ask what’s wrong with me this morning. I have rephrased this question several times, I don’t feel particularly clear-headed, though I am not sleepy, and I feel like the temperature here is way too hot, even though I just checked the thermostat and moved it from 65 down to 64. Is there something going on that I should know about? Is this a day when I should use the journal rather than going directly to the computer?
No answer. Maybe I should do this another time?
R: You were wanting an example of how you think, which amounts to an examination of your preferred mental processes. Waiting gives you a taste of what you are, by withholding what you do easiest.
F: Hmm. So I daydream, basically.
R: You don’t construct, anyway. You don’t build logically. Consciously connecting or not, you remain in receptive mode. The paradox inheres in the fact that you can work industriously while remaining in receptive mode, but after all that paradox produces a certain kind of writers.
Now, to the question. I suggested that suffering is better seen as a byproduct than as a desired result, and I could continue in different directions by continuing to use physical pain as the metaphor. Thus, pain as a signal to the body that something is wrong. Pain as a signaling system, in other words. That is one very useful attribute of pain that is easily overlooked. Pain as feedback looks very different than pain as something introduced into the world for the entertainment of the non-3D.
F: I am still not functioning well. I had to delete the paragraph that just came out as a garble. You never answered the question. What’s wrong with me today?
R: It isn’t a question easily answered. You can feel the difference in that it feels like the top of your head is heavier.
F: Whatever it is, it feels oppressive.
R: Like a sinus headache, without the headache?
F: That’s a good way to describe it.
R: And you are wanting an explanation that says for some reason your connection isn’t clear, and you are asking by means of your connection to someone centered in non-3D.
F: I never said it isn’t ridiculous.
R: Just sit with it for a few moments. Either your head will clear or it won’t. If it doesn’t, you can always do this another time. [5:30]
F: 5:37 a.m. I guess I’ll go read for a while, or maybe go back to bed. Not accomplishing anything here.
7:30 a.m. I guess we’re not going to get anything today. Finished the book, tried napping for a while, woke up suddenly, but as I sit here I’ve got nothing. I think I will pass this on to the list, for their interest, but no point in putting it on the blog or Facebook. I do wonder what’s going on. There was a littlie dizziness, too